I'm currently reading W. Somerset Maugham's "The Razor's Edge" again for the first time in probably about 30 years and finding myself identifying greatly with both the young protagonist "Larry" as well as the older, wordly yet disingeuine "Elliott Templeton" as if I'm Larry trapped in Elliott's life. My life right now; while on a truly positive track for the first time in 38 years, if ever, is continually hampered and haunted by the past in very real and profound ways on a daily basis; the specifics of which are ancillary to the core of the conundrum I find myself in. It just seems that with every step I take in a positive direction I am pulled back two or more steps as the result of some misstep(s) of my past life and the situation is frustrating at the very least and at times quite maddening in cause and effect. At first and even second glance it would seem that I will be stuck in this situation for the rest of my life and that I will never be able to climb out of the karmic hole I've dug and thrown myself into and that I may as well just toss dirt over myself and and make it my literal as well as figurative grave and give up yet the changes I've been through to date are preventing me from doing so. I've never been a quitter in my life yet I've never really completed anything for that matter either. I've been paying for my entire life by cashing yesterday's checks by funding them with tomorrow's promises and now that I've abruptly ceased doing so the caboose of my "train" is catching up with the engine by slamming into one freight car at a time over and over again....bam, bam, bam! I don't know how many more freight cars there are left separating the caboose from the engine but I do know in the core of my being that I must keep a deathgrip on the handbrake of the engine as I quite clearly see the end of the tracks leading over the precipice of a bottomless chasm into which my train will surely catapult into and burst into flames should I ever go back onto the track my life was dead set upon a very short seven months ago... I'm in a very strange, almost surreal space right now and I feel as if something is testing me hard and around every corner. It's as if my moral character is on trial and in the witness stand and it's being cross examined by a very contemptuous and crafty prosecutor who's throwing 100 mph curveballs directly at my head in rapid succession. I also feel that it's no coincidence that my confirmation name within the Roman-Catholic faith of my childhood is Peter, first of the twelve apostles who was later to deny Jesus three times before the cock crowed three times before dawn.
Without going into great specific details I'll just touch upon a series of events that occured yesterday that have me wrestling with myself over moral issues. The first of which is that I discovered through some investigative legwork of a friend who it was that burglarized my home twice this month and stole several laptops, what's left of my guitar collection as well as some treasured and irreplaceable family heirlooms. I know for a fact it was a person who was doing some work here at my "urban abode" as I heard and recognized his voice on a voicemail he left on my friend's cell phone in responce to my friend's email sent on the one guitar that this person was attempting to sell online. My dilemma comes into play because I know this person is going through a very painful trial right now with a terminally ill spouce being removed off life support today and being allowed to pass. Does this justify this person to break into my house and steal family treasures of extremely sentimental value that I had been saving to pass down to my son? Obvioulsly not but it does cause me great internal struggle about having told my discovery to the detective assigned to my case yesterday. I was very upset with the fact that I was violated by a person that was hired and paid to do work in my home and who took items of such personal value to me yet conflicted and moved to tears with feelings of understanding and deep compassion for someone who is under the great emotional distress of having to literally disconnect a spouce from life suppport and I am still struggling within myself over this situation although I intellectually know what is right and what is wrong and that I did the right thing by giving this information to the detective to investigate.
The other test that presented itself very vividly to me yesterday was being made aware of a friend who was in the depths of methamphetamine withdrawl which is a living hell that I've had to experience more times than I care to recall in my life and was seriously dope sick and in need of a fix but broke and no means to "get well" other than to resort to selling her body which she would have done in order to get what she needed so I asked her this question "Do you want to get clean or are you just out?" and the answer was "Just out" and although I know it was the wrong thing to do I wound up giving this person enough money to get well and spared her the indignation of selling herself. I don't abide by the "tough love" philosophy as I've been on the receiving end of that doctrine. I know all too well that nobody's ready to clean up until they're ready and I know this person is close but not quite at that point so she would have "gotten well" one way or another without my intervention and that's a fact but I do struggle it and actually came very fucking close to doing some up with her myself last night and took off out of her parking lot like a bat out of hell with my "hand wet on the wheel" as in the song Radar Love and locked myself up in my little house down here in the hood with the bars on the windows and held my little kitten and thanked God or whoever it is that's throwing these curveballs at me for one more day clean and sober.
That's all for now I guess, just needed to get this out so I can get back to the many tasks at hand and let things shake out the way they will shake out and be glad that I have such "moral dilemmas" in my heart today for not too long ago I would have handled these very same situations much differently. A short seven months ago I would have hired a few goons, gone to this guy's house, kicked in his door and his face, taken my shit back then gone to my other friend's house bought and sexually abused her body and then done the dope with her and that's all there is to it.... It's Valentine's Day and since my last post my home was burglarized twice and that's never happened to me before and it has left me wanting very little to do with people and I find myself in a very solitary mode and withdrawing from socialization more and more with each passing day. The violation of coming home to finding my back window smashed out and muddy footprints on my pillow and much treasured, irreplaceable personal items missing has been devastating. This little house down here and the few things that I have left to show for my 50 years on Earth mean so very much more than merely "possessions" to me....I lost most of my "possessions" many years ago and every single thing that I have left, which, is not much are treasures to me and the thief stole things like my son's first guitar that was a gift from a very dear friend of mine and my last bass that was a gift to me from another friend that was the last icon from my decade in the music industry, my grandfather's pocket watch and my father's WWII Army Air Corps pilot's wings. It's as if my very DNA was taken from me and I am saddened and angred beyond description yet I realize that they are most likely gone forever and I have to accept it and continue on and not allow it to dissuade me from continuing along this new path I'm on. ...and with that I just crossed the 6 month hurdle mark on this trip I've been on drug free for the first time in 38 years of living hell. I don't know where this path will will lead me down the road, all I know is that so far this has been one hell of an adventure filled with "highs" so much higher than I ever got from using and that's no bullshit. Look, if there ever was any addict out there that stuck it out through thick and thin it's me. I took it past the divorces, bankruptcy, lost careers, jails, rehabs, halfway houses, being robbed, beaten, shot at and stabbed to the very brink of insanity and death many, many times in my life. I have been legally declared as being "unrehabilitatable" and I am here to say that there is no such thing and that I am living testament to that it is indeed possible for anyone to:
1) To restore to good health or useful life, as through therapy and education.
2) To restore to good condition, operation, or capacity.
3) To reinstate the good name of.
4) To restore the former rank, privileges, or rights of.
So, if anyone out there who may stumble upon this blog post is having a hard time believing that it can be done and is stuck in the depths of the pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization which was my daily existence for very long, very hard 38 years I'm here to tell you that it can be done! It's not easy, in fact, it's the hardest thing I've ever done in my life and I have to do it over and over again every damned day but it's starting to get a bit easier to do with every passing day that goes by.....one day at a time. Don't be worried whether you will be able to make it in this life or not. Once you have started flowing, you have already made it. Every river is constantly moving to be the ocean. The problem is only with those who have become ponds, closed, not open to flow, having forgotten that this is not their destiny, this is death. To be a pond is to commit suicide, because there is no growth anymore, no new spaces, no new experiences, no new skies -- just the old pond, rotting in itself, becoming more and more muddy. To be a seeker means dropping this static state and becoming a changing, moving, flowing river. It does not matter when you reach the ocean. The beginning is the end. The whole beauty is in the beginning, because once you have started moving, the end, falling into the ocean, is absolutely determined. The beginning was in your hands; it was your freedom, hence the beauty of the beginning. Falling into the ocean will be tremendously ecstatic, but it is not in your hands. What was in your hands was the beginning, and you gathered courage; you jumped out of a static, dead situation into a living being... alive, singing and dancing. Who cares when the ocean comes? The beginning is enough, more than enough -- because falling into the ocean is bound to happen.You have started flowing. Rejoice in it. Don't think of the tomorrow. Today is enough unto itself, a blessing, a benediction. And you are the ocean -- what more are you going to gain when you fall into the ocean? It is simply the realization that the water, whether in a dewdrop or in the biggest ocean, is of the same nature; every dewdrop contains oceans in it, and all the oceans are made only of dewdrops. So the real seeker is not concerned about the goal.The real seeker is concerned about the right beginning, and you are blessed because the right beginning has happened. OSHO I'm off to cover Affiliate Summit West 2009 in Las Vegas which starts at Noon tomorrow through the end of Tuesday. Although I've now been in affiliate marketing industry for three years full-time, this will be my first time at an Affiliate Summit so I'm very excited about attending and reporting back to you all my experiences and latest news daily and of course, as per usual, I'll be posting a ton of pic from the event since Shawn Collins was kind enough to grant me a full media press pass to the event! Event info: Sunday, January 11, 2009 - Tuesday, January 13, 2009 Rio All-Suite Hotel & Casino 3700 W Flamingo Rd Las Vegas Affiliate Summit West is the largest Affiliate Summit, the premier affiliate marketing conference, of the year. This three day conference includes an exhibit hall with affiliate merchants, vendors, and networks, as well as multiple tracks of educational sessions covering the latest trends and information from affiliate marketing experts. The keynote speaker for Monday, January 12 will be Gary Vaynerchuk, star of Wine Library TV and Director of Operations at Wine Library in Springfield, NJ. I look forward to all the seminars, speakers, events and most of all finally getting to meet many people who I've worked with over the years like Jim Kukral of The Daily Flip bog and the new The Biz Web Coach site which I highly recommend you all check out! Another guy I've been following for years is Carsten Cumbrowski who I consider to be one of the smartest guys in the business. Check out Carsten's website here. I also look forward to meeting with many of the third party affiliate networks that I've worked with over the years like the folks from Commission Junction, LinkShare and the PepperJam Network. I also want to meet with other affiliate network representatives to see what they have to offer and will be reporting back to you my findings. Well, time to pack up the Z and hit the road and head up US 60 in the direction of Vegas where I plan to arrive at the break of dawn so I'll be driving through the desert at night, with the top down, enjoying the full moon, cranking some tunes and will be filing reports several times a day live from Affiliate Summit West 2009. If any other attendees are reading this and want to hook up at the event give me a call on my cell at 602-793-7890 or leave me a message for me at the New York, New York Hotel & Casino where I'll be staying!! I'm off to cover Affiliate Summit West 2009 in Las Vegas which starts at Noon tomorrow through the end of Tuesday. Although I've now been in affiliate marketing industry for three years full-time, this will be my first time at an Affiliate Summit so I'm very excited about attending and reporting back to you all my experiences and latest news daily and of course, as per usual, I'll be posting a ton of pic from the event since Shawn Collins was kind enough to grant me a full media press pass to the event! Event info: Sunday, January 11, 2009 - Tuesday, January 13, 2009 Rio All-Suite Hotel & Casino 3700 W Flamingo Rd Las Vegas Affiliate Summit West is the largest Affiliate Summit, the premier affiliate marketing conference, of the year. This three day conference includes an exhibit hall with affiliate merchants, vendors, and networks, as well as multiple tracks of educational sessions covering the latest trends and information from affiliate marketing experts. The keynote speaker for Monday, January 12 will be Gary Vaynerchuk, star of Wine Library TV and Director of Operations at Wine Library in Springfield, NJ. I look forward to all the seminars, speakers, events and most of all finally getting to meet many people who I've worked with over the years like Jim Kukral of The Daily Flip bog and the new The Biz Web Coach site which I highly recommend you all check out! Another guy I've been following for years is Carsten Cumbrowski who I consider to be one of the smartest guys in the business. Check out Carsten's website here. I also look forward to meeting with many of the third party affiliate networks that I've worked with over the years like the folks from Commission Junction, LinkShare and the PepperJam Network. I also want to meet with other affiliate network representatives to see what they have to offer and will be reporting back to you my findings. Well, time to pack up the Z and hit the road and head up US 60 in the direction of Vegas where I plan to arrive at the break of dawn so I'll be driving through the desert at night, with the top down, enjoying the full moon, cranking some tunes and will be filing reports several times a day live from Affiliate Summit West 2009. If any other attendees are reading this and want to hook up at the event give me a call on my cell at 602-793-7890 or leave me a message for me at the New York, New York Hotel & Casino where I'll be staying!! I just sent this note in reply to a dear friend who asked me how my day was yesterday with the hope that it was a good day: I had a "different" day yesterday, not sure I'd call it "good" necessarily and likewise not sure I'd call it "bad", it was a very emotionally raw, instrospective day like most of my days as of late. At one point last night I found myself slumped down in the doorway between my kitchen and studio frozen, sitting on the floor, unable to move, unable to cry, unable to focus and I remained just sitting on the floor in that doorway for what seemed to be an eternity but it was close to an hour I'd say.
I wouldn't classify it as depression, I wouldn't classify it as lonliness, I wouldn't classify it as sadness but more rather a combination of the three. It was a feeling I've come to know quite well in these past five months, a feeling I've had all my life at times....it is the "hole", the hole within myself that I have previously filled with my addictions in order to not to feel it and when it hit me last night it was like someone hit me with a cattle prod directly in my heart, directly in my soul. I was rendered totally defenseless, unable to move, unable to emote, unable to do anything other than to remain sitting on the floor and wait it out.
When it finally subsided I neither had any new insights, clarity, serenity or anything remotely positively intuitive to draw from the experience. It simply lifted from me like a passing fog bank one encounters while driving down the grapevine at night....I stood up and made a cup of tea and shuddered a bit and finished setting up my studio.
So, I managed to escape the suffocating existence out one the edge of civilization and traded it in for what I have come to call the "Urban Abode" down on Roosevelt Row in the heart of downtown Phoenix and I've now just about got it arranged for what I have begun to call "The Winter of my Content" as a play on Steinbeck's novel. In his "Winter of Our Discontent" Steinbeck's character, Ethan Allen Hawley, works as a clerk in a grocery store he used to own. His wife and children resent their lowly social and economic position, and don't put any value in the high levels of honesty and integrity that Ethan struggles to maintain in a corrupt society. Under this constant pressure, Hawley will eventually manage to get back the store by renouncing his morals, but the new-found wealth will not bring happiness. I have set about to do the opposite of poor schnook Ethan in many ways by rejecting my former lifestyle in all ways, first with cleaning up my multitudes of addictions with substances, gambling, sex and general mucking about and thus "announcing" my morals and living down here on "The Row" with the ghosts of society in sobriety, abject poverty, mostly solitudinal, generally nocturnal and celibate. Although I haven't been able to maintain a perfect record on all counts, I'd say I'm batting a solid "900" with only a few lapses in a couple areas with no relative harm done by any regression and I intend on continuing on with all of the above, at least for a while. Most of my time has been spent getting the house in order these past few weeks and it is now pretty much the way I want it with only a few things left to do, not least of which is to scrape up enough money to get the gas turned on so I can get hot water, take a hot shower and start cooking on the stove instead of only in the microwave, but at least the ice cold showers have proved to be helped with the celibacy issue...LOL I probably will wind up selling the 350Z and taking my equity after paying off the balance and buying something for cash to get around but I really don't need a car that often down here since everything I generally want or need is within a matter of four or five blocks and the new metrorail line is just a few blocks away at Roosevelt & Central but I will look for some funky car or truck to tinker on just the same. I'm looking forward to spring so I can plant a little veggie garden out back and small seeded lawn in front. I guess that's it for now but things are going pretty well in this new lifestyle I've started living and I'm discovering and trying lots of new things that I either never had time to do or didn't even think of doing before. It's amazing how much time being a drug addled, skirt chasing degenerate sucks up in any given day and I now have loads of time to do a lot of cool stuff!! Since this journey started now over five months ago I have become brutally aware of many behavioral shortcomings that I developed over the years that although were highly unsuccessful and unfulfilling, they were at least "comfortable" after thirty eight years of habitual repetition and I'm now starting to get a bit of time under my belt living a different way and it's like starting over with a blank canvas and I can paint anything I want in any color I want!
 | No Shit | Jan 2, '09 2:14 AM
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It was in the winter of my fiftieth year When it hit me I was really alone And there wasn't a hell a lot of time left Every laugh and touch that I could get Became more important Strangely, I became more bookish And my home and study meant more to me As I considered the circumstances of my death I wanted to find a balance between joy and dignity On my way out Above all, I didn't want to take any more shit Not from anybody Iggy Pop | pOsting | Dec 15, '08 8:51 PM
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Day 124 and I survived my ass falling off on Thanksgiving by picking it up, dusting it off, putting it in a paper bag and taking it to an NA meeting then going to McCormick and Schmick's with my sponsor for two "single guy Thanksgiving specials" and washed it down with a big glass of milk and all was well with my world as I know it once again. Then I spent yesterday afternoon meeting with some fellow members of my new 501(c)(3) non-profit expressive art therapy project down on Roosevelt Row looking at buildings and coming up with a target area of where we want to be located. Then in the late afternoon I met up for coffee with a gal pal of mine who wound up going with me to my weekly alumni group meeting out at The Sundance Center. Afterwards we went out for matching his and her crocks of French onion soup at Mimi's Cafe the out to the El Chorro Lodge for coffee and a little slow dancing on the patio under the stars which was quite a nice way to spend Black Friday. I must admit that it was nice to have a beautiful woman in my arms again and slow dancing to all the standard "Rat Pack" tunes but walking her to her door and kissing her lightly on her cheek and locking her within the safe confines of her condo for the night was totally a new experience for this old horndog currenltly celibate by choice. This whole "celibacy deal" that I've been struggling with on a daily basis and going out on platonic dates with drop dead gorgeous women is a bit akin to me locking myself in a Motel 6 with a quarter ounce of meth, an eightball of crack , two fifths of Crown Royal and attempting to work on my 4th step and reading the Big Book without touhing any of it but I had a wonderful evening and I was able to wake up and look at myself in the mirror this morning so that is a good thing....I guess....LOL So now I have a ton on my plate with getting the non-profit set up asap so I can hopefully get out and beat the streets for endowments, grants and donations to get it funded, lease a building and start hiring staff before the end of the year now just a scant 30 days away all at the same time I'm looking for a new personal residence, pack and move as close to the center of Phoenix as possible on or before December 15th when my lease out here on the edge of civilization expires and my rent shoots up from $725 to $1,100 because all the "snowbirds" come out from the ice pack states like the swallows annual return to Capistrano. No great loss there as I hate the cultural, architectural, political and just about every other type of vacuum that exists out here but I'm sitting here with a mere c-note left in my jeans, one carton of smokes, two months upside down on car payments (but it is now insured!) and just enough gas for my daily trips back and forth to my po box to look for the check that's been "in the mail" to me from my one and only social media marketing client that's been on it's way now for oh, about 9 weeks now and trying not to panic and starting to park my car in different places at night to hide it from the repo man who's already starting to call my brother up in Sonoma County looking for me as he's listed as my next of kin on my car loan application. My next address just might be my license plate number if you catch my drift but I ain't sweating just quite yet. That in itself is a tad bit worrysome however I'll discuss that with my therapist on Tuesday right before I hand her that last c-note and go pawn my watch. It's "rough out here I tell ya!" but what else can I do? Going backwards is not even an option so I have to keep rowing this boat forward even though it continues to be sinking faster than it's moving ahead but that's what it's all about I'm coming to realize. There is no deserted island paradise to row to with my Bukowski book and Miles Davis CD populated with brown skinned, post-pubescent, nymphomanics in heat. There's just this endless rowing. The use of social networking sites will continue to grow, but advertising will not necessarily expand along with it, according to market research firm IDC.
Framingham, Mass.-based IDC says in a new study that social networks will face slow ad sales until they can get users to do more than just keep up with friends. That's because members of social networks such as Facebook, MySpace and Bebo tend to click on ads less than the U.S. Internet users overall.
Nearly 80% of all U.S. Web users clicked on at least one ad in the past year, compared to only 57% of online social network users. The higher click-through rate for the general Internet population also led to a higher proportion of purchases--23% to 11%.
Why the difference? "The fact that people use social networking services for communication puts them in a mindset that is less receptive to advertising than when they're using other Web sites like Yahoo or Google," said Karsten Weide, program director for digital media and entertainment at IDC.
He added that email and Instant Messaging services--also used primarily for communication--show similarly low ad-response rates.
At the same time, social networking properties continue to gain in popularity. More than half (54%) of online users are members of social networks, up from 43% a year ago. The demography of users also more closely mirrors the U.S. population, with social networking sites now reaching more than half of 35- to-44-year-olds and more than a third of those ages 45-54.
"It's not just teenagers anymore. It's pretty balanced," Weide said. Attracting a broader, more affluent cross-section of consumers will not necessarily translate into more ad dollars for social networks, however. To boost ad sales, they have to go beyond just giving people another way to communicate, according to IDC.
"What needs to be fixed is ad effectiveness, and the only way to fix it is to get people to do stuff on social networks other than communicate," Weide said. That means encouraging activities that more readily lend themselves to advertising such as sharing media, consuming media, playing games and collaborating on applications.
Facebook certainly helped spark the explosion of Web applications last year by giving third-party developers access to its network. But developers were the main beneficiaries of that move, since they were allowed to keep ad revenue generated by their apps on Facebook.
IDC does not hold out much hope for "social advertising" efforts undertaken by Facebook and others that aim to tap into users' Web of online connections on behalf of marketers. The research firm gives the example of a publisher showing a car manufacturer's ads to a user's contacts because that person's online behavior has indicated interest in a particular brand of cars.
"For consumers, that idea is pretty much stillborn," Weide said. The IDC survey showed that only 3% would allow publishers to use contact information for advertising. Because of privacy concerns, marketers "at the very least, need to tread very carefully with this type of technology," he added.
Facebook faced a backlash last year when it shared members' e-commerce activities with their friends on Facebook without their explicit permission through its Beacon program.
MySpace, which has taken a more traditional approach to advertising, has also struggled to monetize its vast amount of inventory. "As long as the problem of lower ad effectiveness is not solved, (social networking sites) can try more intricate, custom-built ad solutions such as games, sweepstakes or mini Web sites, with the understanding that there may be limits to the scale of such campaigns," advises the IDC report.
The study, the latest installment in its series of surveys on consumer online attitudes, was based on responses from a sample of U.S. residents ages 13 or older who use the Internet at least once a month. The field research was conducted June 19-26.
by Mark Walsh, Online Media Daily Today is 121 days clean for me and it's been a very hard day for me since it's also the 6th anniversary of the day I brought my Pop home from the hospital after his stroke and began my journey as his caregiver and the first Thankgiving without being by his side on this special day as he lies in a hospice in Upstate NY and I sit alone in little furnished studio on the edge of the open desert feeling sorry for myself most of the day unable to get my skinny ass out of bed or stop crying until 5:00 this afternoon until I got a text message from my sponsor, Mike N. to write a list of 10 things that I was thankful for today so I am going to get in the shower, shave and drag my ass to the 7:00 NA meeting at the N. Scottsdale Fellowship after I write and share that list here with you:
I am thankful for:
1) Being 121 days clean, alive, and unicarcerated.
2) Having a roof over my head and food in my fridge.
3) Having a new source of of subsistence level income from my hard negotiated contract with Hythiam, Inc which was finialized this week.
4) Having the ability to talk to and help three people today who are newer to sobriety than I am.
5) Having the continued support from many people in the program as well as my professional counselors like Paula Artac, Annette Pucia, Kirby Maus and Ana Gomez.
6) Knowing that when I walk in that door in one hour at the fellowship hall that someone will be there who has walked the same walk I have and that the lights will be on.
7) That my vision of creating a 501(c)(3) nonprofit art therapy program and foundation for recovering addicts is now a reality as of two days ago and that we're now in early lease negotiations for our own building in the Roosevelt Row arts and cultural district.
8) That my lifelong dream of a career in politics to make a difference in this world is one step closer to becoming a reality and that I'm in the final consideration to receive a fellowship ino the 2009 program at The Center for Progressive Leadership.
9) Having a sponsor like Mike N. who seems to know exactly what I need to do and the exact time I need to do it and be willing to gudie me through it no matter what.
10) Having a higher power in my life who loves me unconditionally and gives me the strength at times such as this when my ass falls off to quite simply bend over, wash it off, put it in a bag and take it to a meeting!
Happy Thanksgiving! I am truly blessed today! One of the best resources I use to filter my online news is by setting up Google News alerts on various topics. You can set them up with any keyword(s) you want. I find it an invaluable tool and highly recommend that everyone sets them up. If you want to learn more about how to set up your own alerts go hereOnce setup you can get a daily digest of news alerts pertaining to any topic you wish and you get abbreviated news stories with clickable links to be able to read further on any story in the digest. I find it far more useful than Twitter because I really don't need to know what you had for breakfast or that your dog barfed on your pillow. 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